Shooting Stars

Keep your eyes on the stars, and your feet on the ground. Teddy Roosevelt

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I'm a 28 year old Mississippi native living in North Carolina. Read all the entries to find out more!

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

rambling

rain, rain, rain. I know we've been in a severe drought - not just a drought mind you but a severe drought - and that we need it. But its just icky outside. I wouldn't mind at all, if I was home wearing my pajama pants, curled under a blanket snoozing or reading. But I'm here at work next to a drafty glass wall, and its dark and windy and I'm sleepy. Coffee isn't helping.

I lurve coffee. I want to go home.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Thanks Be Given

Well, it really is here... I'm happy to say that as I get older and more relaxed, I give thanks on more days than not. Still, I'm glad that we have a day that reminds us to do just that. Even though we tend to hurry and hassle and overload ourselves and family freaks us out, there is still that moment when you stop and sit down, and truly, gratitude fills us from top to bottom.

I am taking my mother and the one niece out of three who opted to come along here. I think it will be a relaxing treat for all of us and fun for Merrie Kate, who's 12. I was originally thinking "Ok, what's the easiest thing to do..." but then I stopped and thought. She's 12 and coming here for Thanksgiving, instead of spending it with her parents. What would make it special, and fun, and something she'll always remember?

I am thankful for many things:

1. That we live under the love and guidance of a caring God who yearns for us to find happiness and grants forgiveness infinitely.

2. That I have so many loving, funny, unique and supportive people in my life - family, friends, coworkers. They are the strands that hold us up and keep us going.

3. For food to eat, a warm bed to sleep in, pets to love, a car to drive. Things get tight sometimes but when it comes down to it, I'm ridiculously wealthy.

4. That I've been given an out-of-nowhere chance at love with a kind, sexy man who has morals and ethics that just cannot be found today, and who cooks for me, keeps my wine glass filled and gives excellent massages.

5. Fall leaves, good books, new movies (Harry Potter IV!), gooey desserts, naps, wine, hugs, cuddling, roaring fires and coffee.

6. Blogging. No, seriously. It's a new dimension to my life that has given me a new way to think and remember things.

So much to list, so much I could say. Instead I'll say have a happy, calorie-filled, Half-Nekkid Thursday Thanksgiving day!

Maybe keep it fully clothed while deep-frying the turkey..

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I Surrender

I'm sitting here complacently listening to Christmas music. I admit it's rather soothing and uplifting. Like I said, I love the stuff... I just hate to rush the season.

Sleepy, grouchy, bitchy, impatient and all the other dwarves

It's not Christmas yet, fuckers. So stop playing 24 hours of Christmas music every day. Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas and I love Christmas music but dammit, we have not had THANKSGIVING yet! The Raleigh Christmas parade was this past Saturday. It's fucking ridiculous.

My hair cannot seem to decide between straight or curly so it's inbetween and I hate it.

Getting fat again, despite recent rave reviews.

I have a weird taste in my mouth and a slight cough and my house is messy and my mother will be driving up tomorrow and I hate cleaning and I don't want to be at work and I'm all twitterpated over my new guy and he's leaving tomorrow although he did tell me he's going to do his damndest to be back for my birthday (Dec. 18th) and wants to take me to tour the Biltmore Estate to see it all decorated for Christmas.

He also did give up Monday Night Football with the guys last night AND taped the two-hours of Prison Break so he could make me dinner. All his idea.

Must run, brb.

Friday, November 18, 2005

I called it!

Remember my suggestion for non-children seating in restaurants, like non-smoking? (You may have to scroll down the page)

Check this out. Hah! People always steal my ideas...

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Half-Nekkid WooHoo

I don't have a picture to post, but I've been informed that I am a beautiful, amazingly sexy woman. That I have a gorgeous grin and pretty eyes and infectious giggle. That my ass is sexy as hell and my chest is Wow. That I am causing someone's guards to fall away

That's good enough for me.....

Happy HNT!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Quick Change

He just called to offer to make me dinner after my meeting.

No good can come of this at all. : D

Meeting Tonight, but More Fun Tomorrow

I have a date Thursday night. Despite his empty protests that we will stay up too late again.

Weekend is looking promising, too.

I forgot how nice this feels... I just wish I could leave work, go home and put my jammy pants on and enjoy it all. Oh well... another couple of hours.

Just My Luck

Janine said that she'd cross her fingers for me that all would go well last night on my date.

Girl's got some power in those hands, it seems. It was basically perfect.

Just my luck, to find someone I actually like and that likes me back. As he put it, it's "totally unexpected".

He's a gentleman and I enjoyed every second of our 7-hour date. Yes, we talked until 2:30 a.m. No, I didn't sleep with him and he didn't even try to do more than kiss me.

He is a very, very good kisser. I feel happily unsettled... but not in the mood to talk about it just yet. Let me get some coffee.

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Drinks at 7:30 pm

With Pilot-boy (see below)

I am getting advice from people in four different states. What to wear, what NOT to say.. can you tell its been a long time for me? : D

This is fun! I promise to not act slutty or desperate or get drunk. Or bitch about ex-boyfriends. I will, however, be myself and if the man is intrigued even more than he is, well I can't help that...

Mmmmm

Happy distraction. Cute engineer that I have a major crush on (he has a girlfriend, but he spent a half hour one day telling me about their relationship woes) was here for a meeting and holy moley did he ever smell good. He followed me to see if our staff was ready and was just YUM.

Damn these cute sexy men and their good smells and their hag girlfriends!

I know he's tempted. After all, I'm ten years younger and sexier and more fun than the one he has. He was invited to the bonfire and responded tentatively - his girlfriend was going to be out of town, isn't that interesting? But he didn't come, I didn't really expect him to and it was fine. I don't steal other people's men when it comes down to it.

I figure I'm doing her a favor.. I flirt and make him feel hot, he goes home to her... well, we all know how it works.

He did ask how it went, though. That was when he was standing there smelling so good and telling me about helping his friend hang windows on Saturday.

Like I said, a nice distraction and a reminder to keep one's options open....

Starting to Remember, Now...

So. I met someone that I like, and who seems to like me back. We unintentionally picked each other up in a bar. Actually, my friend and I moved in on an empty table just as he and his friend did but they agreed to share. So we sat next to each other and started talking. Or screaming, rather, since the music was pretty loud. I had noticed him earlier and made eye contact a couple times.

We had good conversation and he asked me for my number about 3 times and lamented the fact that he didn't have his cell phone with him, so he wouldn't have to worry about losing the piece of paper. He also wasn't one bit creepy and he made me laugh. We ended up talking on the phone for FIVE hours Sunday night. I can't remember the last time I did that. Usually I hate talking on the phone. We're supposed to go out either tomorrow night or Thursday night... and I'm looking forward to it.

I'm trying to not get excited or too involved. After all, I'm not looking for anything serious.. need to keep my options open.

But its OK to get a little excited and happy, plus it just adds to my glow ; )

Some quick stats:
-Works for the state level of the Nat'l Guard as a helicopter pilot
- cute, blonde, blue eyes, works out regularly
- wanted to go to med school but ended up with the strange double major of zoology and philosophy (sounds like something I'd do, actually) and emphasis on animal emotions
- recently spent $2,000.00 to save his dog's life
- is funny and a gentleman too

We both spent a good deal of time convincing the other that we rarely even GO to bars (which is true) much less pick up other people there. He's not the player type, I can tell. But he still might be the type to get excited about me and then disappear.

So, no getting attached.

Now I remember why it was simpler to NOT date. I feel rusty and awkward at times, not knowing the games or the rules or whatever. So I just try to be myself and be honest and forthright.

Stay tuned!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Weary But Thankful

I can't believe I haven't blogged in almost a week. It's just been crazy here at work. I'm so tired... I have tomorrow off for Veteran's Day, thankfully. I have 19 minutes until the Planning Board meeting so I'll write something now. Not much to tell about the personal life, really or rather I'm too tired to think of it all. I have something more important to say anyway.

I wanted to post pictures of my two grandfathers, both of whom served in World War II. I didn't get to, so I'll just write some homage to them.

Granddaddy Jesse Quentin Lowe was held as a POW in the country of Romania for several months. I never learned many details but I know it was horrible. He was awarded a Purple Heart for bravery in addition to other medals. He came home to live the rest of his life with my grandmother and their children - Sandy, Sherry, Gay, Melody, Kim, and their only son Dow.

The only time I saw my grandfather cry was when Dow died in his thirties. I will never forget that image of this tall, strong and gentle man, crouching in the cemetery with his face buried in his hands. The man who survived torture and near starvation was broken down by the loss of his only son.

As I got older I began to hear tales of when he drank and how violent he could be. But us grandkids only knew him as a gentle giant who grew his own fruits and vegetables and built beautiful wood crafts with his large but so soft hands. He loved to sit by the fire place and smoke while fresh peanuts roasted on the hearth. No matter what time of night we arrived for a visit, he got out of bed and came to hug us. That is how I will always remember him, in his white a-shirt and striped pajama pants. Tall and smiling with sunburned cheeks. He always had enough love for all of us: me, Paula, Sarah, Lydia, Thad, Emily, Ben, Moriah, Erin, Amber, Rosanna, Joe, Jesse and Suzannah.

He died my junior year of high school after a stroke, and we had him cremated. At the funeral we had a picture of him when he was young, a vase of roses (his favorite flower) and his folded flag with the medals. We sang his favorite hymns (In the Garden) and cried and laughed. The floor was littered with Kleenex, the pew where the grandkids sit held empty Kleenex boxes.
I still miss him.

I never knew my paternal Granddaddy Paul Spencer. He died the year I was born but my older sister was very close to him. She inherited his red hair and his name (Paula). He was a tall and lanky farmer who grew sweet potatoes and had a crinkly grin. He stopped buying Coca-Cola when the price went up to 6 cents a bottle. He made sure my daddy got a good education. He picked up a gun off a dead Japanese soldier in the Pacific and brought it home, in addition to pictures of the natives there - most of whom were naked! He went out three times a day to take care of the livestock and once a week to take his sweet potatoes out to sell to the merchants.

Two more men who did what men do in that time, who risked their lives and lived with the memories of what they went through and what they saw over there. I also wish to salute my two grandmothers, who let them go to do that and loved them through the duration, and afterwards as they healed from those invisible wounds that only our veterans know.

I thank them, and I thank all of you out there who also served your time or are currently serving so that I can be in America and live this rich life that I have. May God protect and bless you, and I swear that I can see my grandfathers beaming up in Heaven right this minute.

Happy Veteran's Day to you all.

Friday, November 04, 2005

It's Friday!!

Yay! It's the weekend! I'm happy but I'd be happier if I had a little money to spend. I'd like to go see a movie or something but maybe I'll just clean my house and catch up on reading.

Last night I ended up having a super-duper uber fun time with my friend Chris who's an investment advisor with Edward Jones. We've always had a nice rapport but I was really pleasantly surprised at how much fun I had. He made me laugh and I admit, he's cute. He wore a suit which a man always looks nice in and not once did he answer or use his cell phone. He had to leave at seven to go play hockey but we had a blast. I had such a good time I almost forgot to pick up my friend Chad who's carpooling with me. Oops.

We had the appetizers (oak-fired shrimp and crab cakes) and he had two beers and I had two glasses of wine and he even paid for my drinks. In return, I have emailed him The Song.

I am a dirty, dirty woman. Have a great weekend!

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Come Tiptoe Thru the Tulips With Me


Cause it's Half-Nekkid Thursday!

This was taken one evening recently after I'd painted my toenails. I had them propped on the coffee table admiring my handiwork and decided to snap a picture. I know it looks all set up and planned but really it wasn't. I just had some candles going and other stuff was already on the coffee table.


As you can see, the TV is, sadly, not turned on, since I don't have cable or satellite. And that is why taking pictures of my newly-polished toes is entertaining. : (

Tired today, but still wishing you a happy HNT.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Happy Fun Smile Stuff

Let's take a break and hear about the FUN stuff that's going on. I got to do the coolest thing last night.

My buddy Chad has car issues, so we've been carpooling. He works at the airport, scheduling charter flights. Well, when I went to pick him up he showed me all around their offices AND took me out to show me the planes! I got to get inside this nifty little 8-passenger jet and let me tell you... I want to be part of How the Other Half Lives. It was immaculate. Small, but spacious. Beige Italian Leather seats. Cupholders, pull out tables, DVD players and mini TV Screens. It was So. Freaking. Awesome.

Then. THEN!!! We walked out and I got to see an F-18 that was parked there up close. I didn't get to see the inside of course. I didn't know that planes as objects, could be so sexy. It really was just that.

So this morning I check my mailbox at work and my friend Chris Theis, who's this cute broker for Edward Jones, had sent me a thank-you card for referring people to him. That in itself was sweet enough, but he sent me cards for two appetizers at Stonewood Grill! Isn't that nice? So I called to thank him and tell him the bonfire was moved to the 12th and to come if he could, and said "Let's share these appetizers" and he thought that was great. So we'll do that tomorrow evening before his hockey game... now I've got to go pick up the Chadster, he's buying me dinner for taking care of his foster dog a long time back. He's also buying me a tank of gas for driving his ass around. Which is really nice.

Damn. People are giving me all KINDS of stuff. I likes it!

Not Only Does He Love Me, He's Writing a Part for Me in His Screenplay!

So yeah. I feel kind of bad, posting that piece of his soul. After all, he told me that I reawakened his passion for writing. I have inspired an artiste. And what do I do? Smear it all over the internet.

Well, I'm sorry, but it was CREEPY. I am happy to report he has backed way off. Poor kid. Just needs some guidance and some growing up.

At least, that was how I felt until he asked me if I wanted to be in a movie that he and Kristy and Jeremy were going to make. *He* wrote the script. Now that doesn't sound too bad, might even be fun, especially if his script is anything like his poetry.

Then I get this, entitled "read after my first email"

Now, there might be one thing about my movie, now you know my writing and you know my humor haha. I am trying to write a horror movie BUT you know in horror movies theres some chick who gets naked, SO i was just throwing it up in the air for you to POUNDER about haha :) Its no big deal really haha it can be more or less a funny option haha. Even if it comes to having me or Jer get naked, NOT meaning in a gay way between him or i haha :) joe

Do you think he meant ponder? Is it a Freudian slip or just bad spelling? Either way, I'm not "poundering" it at ALL.