Excuses

Today's blog entry brought to you by the makers of Wellbutrin XL and Zoloft; by the number 9; and by the letter E.


I haven't blogged in forever. There are several reasons, but I guess all those can be summed up by saying it just hasn't interested me lately. I'm still reading blogs on a daily basis and enjoying them, but I just haven't felt like writing on mine. Everytime I think I have something, by the time I get to a computer I've lost interest. I don't really feel like I can talk openly because so many people know about my blog and they may be hurt by something I write. Or other days, it's that I'm just griping and I come across as being so negative. And lastly, my depression and anxiety came back with a vengeance a few weeks ago, and just existing and getting through a regular day exhausted me. It's hard work keeping your shit together. So I went back on the medicines that have worked for me in the past and I won't go off of them again. I'm having a bit more trouble with side effects than I did before, but I know they will go away. I can deal with yawning and dry mouth and jitters alternating with fatigue better than the emotional and physical roller coaster. I already feel more focused and bright and efficient and I'm certainly nicer to people than I have been. So, I know I don't have much of an audience but for those who have kindly checked back regularly, here's a new entry. And I will try my best to post some more soon.